In nature movies they always show the action parts. They never show the animals just hanging around doin' nothing, which is what they do most of the time.

I think in moments of tension humans tend get aggresive and defensive, sometimes violent. When being aware in these moments one can get an overview of these moments and see the causes and reactions. Trying to be 'right' and defending your own ground is not always easy without raising your voice or getting personal. But if you keep breathing and keep peace and healing of the moment in the back of your head it will work. To come to a consensus in a calm communicative manner. So no one gets hurt, physically or mentally.

You are not bad.. Noone is bad.
Everybody is just dumb..
Dumber then they might think..

I too often come to realise my reasons after the initial action. What I mean..
Sometimes you can only tell afterwards why you did what you did.
Thought is a powerfull thing.
That is what I am after.
Being aware in every moment. To experience thought all around.
Because thought makes the world. Physically and mentally.
It creates structures and perception of these structures.
If it is peace you are after, create an image of peace in your head. The perfect picture.
And remind yourself of this in moments of stress or when you feel aggression coming up.
"Your place of Zen" you can call it... haha...

Good luck with that
Sincerely

Geert